Biting A Pill Instead Of Biting My Tongue Wasn't Maybe The Best Idea

I feel like throwing up
All the butterflies you fill my gut up with.
Everything I know is
It's useless to just think a second about you
But I can't stop myself from dreaming.

I don't wanna be forced
To leave the house on Valentines.
I can't stand the smiling hearts
And the scent of love in the air.
As when I close my eyes I'm able to count
The hearts I'm not even able to read.

Even if I try, I can't help
Your desire that I cheer for your and her.
Obviously it's breaking my heart
And make the darkness grow inside.
The green eyed monster's awakening.

I don't wanna be forced
To leave the house on Valentines.
I can't stand the smiling hearts
And the scent of love in the air.
As when I close my eyes I'm able to count
The hearts I'm not even able to read.

If I'm going to be a thief
And take over her body
Will I finally feel love?
(Will you love me
When I am not me?)

You should know I don't like sugar in my coffee, darling.

I can't remember the time
I allowed you to fuck up with my mind.
There's no way you're still the one I knew
But I still can't let go of you.
Continue, repeat, make me quit being stubborn.

The mirror in my stupid clutch's
Only facing the selflessness of the
Drama-princess I'm using to be.
(Drama-princess, bury your tiara.)

The little me I never lost is
Telling me the demands of my
Childish heart and all the
Dreams of pure being together I lost.
I'm still wishing that I don't have to end up alone.

I don't wanna be forced
To leave the house on Valentines.
I can't stand the smiling hearts
And the scent of love in the air.
As when I close my eyes I'm able to count
The hearts I'm not even able to read.
When I close my eyes I see nothing,
Nothing else as emptiness, bitterness
And in my deepest nightmares
Still your smile.

I don't wanna be forced
To leave the house on Valentines.
I can't stand the smiling hearts
And the scent of love in the air.
As when I close my eyes I'm able to count
The hearts I'm not even able to read.