Waves In Caves

Fear runs down my neck,
My back, cuts me open
So that everyone can see:
I'm empty.
That's the sense of being me.
It means to swim through the forest,
To fight against words and
Losing consciousness all the time.

Be aware of what you love,
Someday it could fake your suicide.
Waves in caves and bloody thorns
Lead you to a heartless self.

The touch of your hands,
I can't feel it anymore,
Threw out all of you
Just to be alone again
'Cause soul and mind are comrades
Working against me.
(Trying to defeat the endless silence.)
I scream too loud,
Can't hear my own thoughts anymore.

Be aware of what you love,
Someday it could fake your suicide.
Waves in caves and bloody thorns
Lead you to a heartless self.

It's december in my castle,
The freezing cold burns down my throat.
I lit a match, my little hope,
To see you smiles surrounding the night sky
Before the widest one blows this hole
Into my head.
Does this mean the end for us
Or is it only me?

Crawling, creeping, deep blue sea,
Can't see the end,
Can't see the end,
Pale white fingers under water
Touching, searching my breathless body
Between ghosts and shelfes in the sand.